It seems as though my life is a roller coaster ride of emotions. That's the cards I was dealt. I get my highs and lows from my dear sweet loving mother :) Love you Mom. I have to say...my roller coaster has been pretty much climbing since C was born....but almost 5 months later....it's on a downward turn and it's heading there fast. I just feel as if we are in a rut lately. I am getting sick of breastfeeding even though I have no intentions to stop it and I know how great it is for him. I am so entirely over this whole selling the house business. I am over being a stay at home Mom. I am over just about every aspect of my life right now. I know this won't last but I it sure does stink while it's here. I want my happy love life attitude back darnit!
I love love love to look at my baby boy while he's nursing and have the bonding time with him....but it's just so hard to do with J. He has now resorted to shouting "Put the baby down" as soon as he sees me sit down. It breaks my heart, but he HAS to wait. He is not the priority at that given moment.
As far as selling the house....well I know we've just begun...but I'm sick of it. I think what started my pissiness about this was cleaning the house spotlessly and staging it for a showing, making cookies and getting the kids out of the house (all of the fore mentioned was by myself might I add) during naptime.....only to find out the buyers/agent never came. I just wish someone would love it, make an offer and we'd wipe our hands clean of this place. I hate it here. Bah.
The being a stay at home Mom part....well....that's a lie....I am not "over" that because there is no other job or thing I would rather be doing at this point in my life...I'm just TIRED! So tired! I need a break! A vacation...a pedicure....a massage....a nap. All of the above?!?! Maybe my sweet, kind and thoughtful husband will read this. Yea right!
Rant and ramble, piss and grumble.....
Here's to a better attitude after my 2nd cup of coffee ;)
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